i wrote you a note. then i threw it away. then i wrote you another exactly the same.
i cant get over the need to feel okay.
the need to be with you.
ive never cried so much over one person in my entire life.
i brought my bunny to school today. thought it might be my security. it kept me calm. before i sacrificed myself and ripped apart my insides in a note for you.
"so much for my happy ending."
its not like giving you the note wouldve killed me before. i was just afraid. i didnt want to write the wrong words (again).
im just finally sick and tired of this heavy heart breaking every night and flooding my pillow.
i feel like me and last years me [the me that was with you] are now walking side by side. the only difference between them: you. youre with one. the one who loves everything and enjoys everything in life. the one that hasnt cried in forever because shes always happy because shes with you. and the one youre not with. the one that cries almost every night. the one that relieves her pain in ways she shouldnt. the one who would do anything to have you back.
the similarity in these two girls: they both love you. they both would die for you.
"shes fallen from grace. shes all over the place."
yea, pretty much.
"shes lost inside. lost inside."
who i was hates who i am.
dont tears ever run out?
my eyes look hurt and broken and puffy every morning.
and i hate it.
clog your tear ducts with eyeliner.
we dont want a leak (today).
take my hand one more time.
give me your lips and you can have mine.
please just one last time.
can i be your secret?
would you be mine?
yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
