eggshell love. (un)breakable.

and im thinking i wont give you the time of day.
remember: you said "you can trust me."

but its things like this that keep me writing.
you and or he keep(s) me on my toes.
on my tongue.
on my fingers.
and on my heart.
[see also: writers block]

carpal tunnel alert.
carpal tunnel of love.
[i guess there really is one]


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.

stained tears on white.

you said "kiss me back to sleep".
and to myself i said "i will".

i read your words like gospel.

if only i could speak when youre in front of me.
when i meet you in a dream.
i cant say a word.
i open my mouth to speak.
but my words drift away from me.
my fear is that youll see right through me.

id give anything for a single kiss from you.

and its the songs that blare through my headphones.
in places which dont permit it.
those songs wrote my moods.
wrote my emotions.
scraped my scars.
stitched my stithces.

i only wish you could just read what i write.
and feel the same way i feel when i read what you write.

we're gonna meet this year.
ive been dreaming it.
i can feel it.
maybe sooner than i think.
maybe sooner than you think.

i await the moment when i can look upon the four of you.
when i can say this is the best moment of my life.
when i can open my mouth to tell you i love you [and nothing will come out].

im counting down minutes i dont know.
days i can only wish to count down.
maybe im even counting down time i dont have.
you tell me.
am i wasting first stars [every night]?


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.

now this is just too bad.

i feel like im on air when i read what you write.
you mean the world to me.
but i could never tell you that.

yourprincessofbrokenhearts.

lock me up or lock me down. just dont take my music.

go ahead, hate me.
im addicted to poster boys in the scene.
im addicted to temptations i cant look away from. (or rather take my ears from)
it leaked. i listened.
"last years wishes are this years apologies"
[aint that the truth]
found a new song thats gonna own me.
or maybe it always did.
from the moment the writer wrote it.
till the moment my ears first engulfed it.

better log off before my typing gets the best of me.
better log off before my words get the best of you.

we're more alike than anyone knows.
more alike than you know.

live it. write it. love it. prove it.


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.

kisses in places they dont belong?

kisses in church corners.
did they not belong?
they wanted to.

best friends still lie.
she lied to my face.
ill lie to hers.
i love him. [but thats no lie]

everyone can see the kiss still on my lips.
even after you walk away.
my cheeks go pink.
and an uncontrollable smile comes upon me.
theres no hiding. [you were just there]

messing around or more?
what are best friends (really) for?

im sorry.
but im not sorry.


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots. [for GC]
hisgirlofnoregrets. [no matter what]

kisses on the lips of 'just friends' in church halls secret places.

when i say i dont like you.
im the worst liar i know.

"you're attracted to the things you need."

youre nothing short of amazing.
the year of secrets?
the year of last years problems solved.


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots. [for GC]

- let me bite my tongue. while i say. congrats Benj. and ill always remain your maddengurl.

goodbye 06'. hello new year. lets take it from here.

i think sometimes we need to look back in order to look forward.
2006...
it was truly the greatest year of my life. [so far]


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots.[for GC]