2007.

happy new year baby.
too bad youre so far away.
or atleast it feels that way.

never get attatched.

upcoming this year:
new loves born.
new lies told.
new hearts broken.
new scenes on concert floors.

concert floors are gonna own me.
bands i love are gonna learn my face.
theyll hear me scream.
and sing every word i know they mean.

gonna be a great year.

person: so whod you kiss at midnight on new years eve?
me: i kissed a 7 inch plastic doll.
person: ....
me: yep. :) there were witnesses..
person: ..... *walks away*

i could be the kewlest or craziest girl you ever met.


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots. [for GC]

im more dedicated to you than you are to me.

all questions.
no answers.
all life and death.
do you ever feel like youre losing your breath?

its been 2 monthes since my last concert.
im already missing the scene.
hurry up new year.
im losing it. [all]


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots. [for GC]

fragile girl.

raccoon eyes.
soft heart. [too soft]
pull string tears. [no lock]

these keyless words flow out of my like a garden hose.
how can someone be so happy and still cry.
tears of joy? [oh, really]

i spoke to my idol last night.
how amazing the feeling was.
greatness spoke to me.
it felt nauseously incredible.
i wonder if he knows.
(that) he saves my life day in and day out.

do you know i strive to be like you?
and did you know that i would die for you?

well i do.
and i would.
forever and always.
this is dedication.
its not love its a passion.


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots. [for GC]

wishing you the best. [first time in awhile]

dont you ever get tired of the same old thing.
we exchange the same looks everytime we speak.
and when we do speak we both know we're probably thinking the same thing.
[trying not to say the wrong thing.]
arent you tired of the same old girl yet.
giving you the same old 'no affection' smile.
and the same old fake 'i love you(s)'.

through all the hurt youve put me through this year.
and through all the happiness youve given me this year.
i just want you to know.
on new years im letting it all go.
the good and the bad.
i want us to start over.
rewind to when we had it [all].
we held each other up so high.
and i think we can be those two people again.

im the best liar i know.
i never shouldve said.
i didnt want us to stay friends.
it was the worst mistake ive made all year.

im wishing you the best.
[first time in awhile im willing to admit.]
who ever knew id still be in love with you.


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots. [for GC]

hang on. i think youre about to take a turn for the __(best)(worst)__.

quite an inquisition.
me naïve?
ive become quite acquainted with the word.
for ive been called it several times in my life.
mostly for the reason which my mind is always wandered off into the impossible abyss of my wildest fantasies.
it is because i believe (in) them.
i believe the dreams i dream.
the thoughts i think.
the words you say. [or used to]
and i enjoy it.
all of it.
the idea of having something in my own head which i could never call my own anywhere else is fascinating.
unreal even.
i mean think about it.
you have a world inside your mind and your heart.
and no one can visit it or even get a taste of its worth but you.

another thing.
we are four days away from christmas -and still no one is "in the spirit".
i mean come on.
how much worse could your family get together be than mine.
im guessing no where near as.
everything is overrated. [including you]
especially me.

trying to make lies a tradition.
its like you telling me that pete wentz is gonna be at my house christmas eve midnight to give me a kiss as i sleep.
yea right.
like id fall asleep (ever) if anyone told me that.
id stay awake (forever).
and this insomniac would become an insomniac times infinity (on high).
i wouldnt be dreamin in the clouds.
id be livin in them.
but when youre little i guess you need something to believe in.
although- in my opinion.
everyone needs something to believe in.
and i choose to believe in whatever sets my heart at ease.

i hope you get everything you want this year.

wrappin all nighters.
2 a.m. missed my first present.
tied the ribbon to my wrist.

"the ribbon on my 'wrist says do not open before christmas'."


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots. [for GC]

hearts brace yourselves for the newest best thing.

perfection was born today on trl.
its called "This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race".
and its creator is Fall Out Boy.
they aint a band.
theyre a *brand*.
get your hands on them.
before they sell out [even though they never will].
[or] get em while theyre hott [even though that ceases to ever change].
but seriously--
this video will throw you off a cliff [or out a window, as peter would maybe prefer].
itll twist your skin.
bust your heart.
grind your ears.
by the time youve seen this video once..
youll be hooked forever.
yes, be prepared.
you have been warned.
these four amazing boys are soul catchers.
good luck.


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots. [for GC]

"no pain, no gain"

how far will he go?
for his fans? -- the world may never know.
hes no peter pan?
well you couldve fooled me.

sending you postcards from home.
all i want for christmas is you by phone.


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots.[for GC]

"slept through the weekend, and dreamed"

i love it when everything goes okay.
it makes me feel good.
like all the bad things have reset themselves and rewinded back to the way things were before they ever happened.

i like the way our christmas tree looks like floating stars in our darkened living room when i slant my eyes to slits and blurr them.
like a thunderstorm in december.
the calm before the storm is so real.
no leaves falling like fake friends.

i love the feeling of a rush before a concert.
the screaming and lack of room to move/lack of air to breathe.
the excitement is overwhelming.
and when the band you love walks on stage.
nothing can top that feeling.
that moment.

another countdown [wouldve] began.
fall out boy - january 11, 2007 - ohio. [sold out]
thats true love.
so much dedication that you cant breathe when youre told you can go.
that you dream of seeing them everynight until the night your dreams become reality.
to see the same dedication for you as you have for them in their faces.
as they drip sweat for every mile you drove and every minute you spent standing in line to see them.
thats true love.
love of making others feel okay.
when they think nothing can.
thats what people lack today.

whats "fall out boy"?
they are the medicine for your ears.
the medicine for broken hearts.
the medicine for lonliness.
the medicine for not being understood.
the medicine for feeling left out.
they are the last thing you think of before you go to sleep.
and the first thing you think of when you wake up.
they are the door you run through and the security you dodge just to get a glimpse of your favorite band before or after a show.
they are the first person you held hands with.
they are your first kiss.
your first love.
they are the same as anyone else.
just better.


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots. [for GC]

i love chicago.

i love my visits to this place i wish i could call my own.
chicago will someday be my home.
but for now its just the thoughts of the darkness around the lit up at night city that keeps me from insanity.
or maybe its just the fact of knowing the great things that have come from there.
either way in my opinion no where else can beat it.
i love chicago.

if you were you to walk past me and i didnt know it:
i wouldnt shed a tear.
but- if you were to walk past me and later i found out:
i would break down.

he spoke to me last week for the first time in several months.
the sound of his voice saying my name made me feel okay.
for that breif moment i didnt hate you.
i didnt want to.
and i never did.

panic! at the disco officially has the sexiest songs ever.
i swoon over brendon urie.
his voice is enough to hyptnotize any 15 or 16 year old girl.
and when he sings "lets get these teen hearts beating faster, faster."
wow, well the lyrics are enough.


yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
theirprincessofriots. [for GC]