you know why ill take hits and lose friends for them?
because every tear ive ever shed has been rewinded back to the beginning.
all since i found them.
they write my moods.
they cure my heart [everyday].
i love them because they mean the world to me.
they mean the world to me because i love them.
there isnt a thing i wouldnt do for any of the four of them.
if you dont understand.
i wont explain.
theres no point in explaining (anymore).
taking (ex) best friends where they dont belong.
lets pretend were role playing.
just play along.
we'll play sing. song. ditch. (later).
hurt doesnt even begin to explain it all.
excitement is what i live for.
they are my sanity and i stand by that 100%.
they all eventually give up on me.
its only a matter of time.
until you do too.
i wont let one of the best days of my life be ruined.
it wont happen.
february 6th is going to be a day of firsts.
first for a cd release concert.
first for hearing ioh songs live in front of me.
first for meeting real friends.
friends who wont think im insane and give up on me like everyone else has.
"you only hold me up like this, because you dont know who i really am."
go ahead.
im not easily fooled these days.
i can spot a fake two thousand miles away.
try me.
pretend you like me.
pretend you wanna be my best friend.
make it known youre by my side.
but when in a fine light.
between mine and your side .
dont you lie to me.
i know its not the truth.
and i know it never was.
damn my never listening.
wow look at those true colors.
better get out the notebook with "friends" -crossed out- on the cover.
write your name under: untrue friend.
another burn?
im sorry.
not.
i knew it was only a matter of time.
but you almost had me fooled.
2am writings are truly my best.
even i lie from time to time.
but atleast when i do it its from nerves.
"thanks for the memories even though they werent so great."
yourprincessofbrokenhearts.
[february 6th -- nothing is going to ruin this.]
